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Important Checklist

  • We're thrilled that you are joining us for this Online Bible Study (OBS)! Write these study dates in your calendar: June 4 - July 16 (6 weeks)
  • Grab your free downloads below, or in the email we just sent from "Study Gateway OBS." If you don't see the email in your inbox, check your junk/spam folders (or promotions folder in Gmail)
  • Don't miss our great offers on the book and study guide, your companions to the weekly videos.
  • Bookmark this web page as your home for the weekly videos (and we'll send it in each week's email on Mondays):

Sneak Peek: Session One

Here's a preview of the session one video study (20 minutes) with Sheila - and you can watch it on our study homepage. The other individual sessions will be available each week based on this schedule:

Here's a look at our schedule:

Session One (June 4 -10) - Brokenness Is the Beginning

Session Two (June 11-17) - Brokenness Is Hard

Session Three (June 18-24) - Brokenness Is Loud

Session Four (July 25-July 1) - Brokenness Is to Be Shared

Session Five (July 2-8) - Brokenness Is the Path to Healing

Session Six (July 9-15) - Brokenness Is Temporary

Catch Up Week (July 16-22) - Missed a week because of vacation or life got in the way? All six videos will be available for viewing at once during this final week of the study.

Question: What Else Do I Need?

The Study Guide

Your access to all 6 study videos will be FREE, but the resource to go along with the videos is the In the Middle of the Mess Study Guide, which has your weekly study questions (workbook-style) for Weeks 1-6. Normally the full-retail price of the study guide is $12.99, but we have an exclusive deal for you! SAVE 40% OFF, final price just $7.99 per study guide! Plus, save 40% off the book and DVD too if you need access to the videos offline. Buy all 3 and save $25! Don't wait... purchase the resources you need today with our special discount! This offer ends soon.

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Get the Companion Book to the Study

The Book

The recommended reading material and companion to your study guide is the In the Middle of the Mess hardcover book (9781400204915) - the book that Sheila says was the hardest she's even undertaken, and her most honest about her ongoing struggles. You can still participate in the OBS with just the workbook and your FREE access to all the videos. But don't miss this great deal. Online Bible Study participants save 40% off the book - final price just $13.99 each. Purchase your resources here...

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Writing this book "In The Middle of the Mess" is the hardest project I've ever undertaken. Half way through, I almost quit as it felt too raw and a bit too vulnerable. I've always been fairly open about my struggles with depression. But I've never talked about another ongoing battle, a battle with suicidal thoughts. Some things are still never talked about in the Church as there is so much shame attached.

Last year however, I spoke at an event with about 5,000 women and as I came to the close of the message I felt the Holy Spirit move me in a direction I've never gone before. I asked the audience if they have ever struggled with suicidal thoughts or if they were cutters to join me at the front. I stood with tears pouring down my face as over 300 women, ages 14 to 73 joined me.

Honestly, I was shocked but it made me realize that this is a dark corner in the Church where we need to shine the light of Christ. We think our secrets keep us safe but the opposite is true, they keep us in bondage.

It's not just suicidal thoughts. There are so many areas where we struggle alone . So many messes. Illness, divorce, job loss, depression and life changes.

Yet James wrote, "Confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed." 5:16

The truth is that life is a mess but we are not alone and together, in Christ, we can find strength to live this beautiful, broken life.

Sheila Walsh

What People Are Saying

  • Kay Warren Kay Warren Co-founder of Saddleback Church with her husband, Rick; author and Bible teacher

    When Sheila Walsh told me her next book would chronicle her lifelong struggle with suicidal thoughts, I cried.  I cried for her – for the terrible suffering she has endured with the dark thoughts that accompany major depression. I cried for my son, Matthew, who lost his courageous fight with mental illness. But I also I cried tears of relief for the women who will read this book and find unbelievable comfort, strength, and HOPE as they recognize – maybe for the first time – that their immense pain is understood, shared and validated, not only by Sheila, but by a loving Father.  If you’ve ever told yourself “this world would be better off without me” or “I can’t do this another day” please read In the Middle of the Mess.  You’ll find a sister who gets you, who is walking the same road you are, and who is learning how to survive and even thrive in the middle of the mess of this broken and beautiful life.

  • Ann Voskamp Ann Voskamp bestselling author of The Broken Way and One Thousand Gifts
    This book will not only change your life — it may just literally save your life. It is one rare, luminous, astonishingly brave book, saying what too many of us in the shadows have been desperate for someone to speak out loud for years. Sheila Walsh is not only a brazenly vulnerable, fearless warrior, she speaks unwavering truth that shat- ters the dark into a freeing light. It’s a long time since I’ve read such a book and I weep for joy that someone finally wrote a literal lifeline. This woman is my hero.
  • Lisa Bevere Lisa Bevere New York Times bestselling author

    In the Middle of the Mess boldly combats the lie that we are alone in our struggles and unqualified by them. In a world overrun by social media it’s easy to forget that no one is without hardship. Sheila’s beautiful vulnerability will remind us all that while we may see ourselves through the skewed filter of the world, God sees us through the cleansing blood of Jesus, perfect and whole. 

Study Downloads to Get Started

Click on the links to download these files to your device (phone, computer, tablet). We have also sent copies of these to your email from sender "Study Gateway OBS." Enjoy!

Questions and Answers

  • q-iconI can't find my confirmation email with the free downloads. Was it sent?

    You should receive the confirmation email within 15 minutes after signing up. If you don’t see it in your inbox, check your spam or junk folders. Look for sender name Study Gateway OBS and sender email address Gmail users, the email may be located in the Promotions tab. If you still can’t find the email, you can try to register again (make sure there are no typos in your email) or contact our customer support team – they’d be happy to help you!

  • q-iconWhere do I sign up for the Facebook private group? What's that all about?

    Join here on Facebook as a way to engage with other participants in the study! This is the place for individuals who are going through the study to find communuty and receive more daily interaction. Be sure to read the community rules and remember to keep conversations on topic with no soliciting. We’d love to have you be a part of this group!

  • q-iconI want to invite other members of my church or small group to join the study. What is the best way to do that?

    It’s easy! Just send the registration page link ( in an email and they can sign up.

  • q-iconWhat other ways can we engage with the online participants?

    We’re bringing watch parties to OBS! Watch for more information about the weekly watch party dates and times.

  • q-iconI'm already part of a small group at church. How can we do this study with you?

    All of the online activities associated with this study are optional. You can still structure your group like a traditional Bible study using the free downloads we’ve provided and the study materials in the book. Feel free to follow our study calendar and meet every week or set up your own schedule and go at your group’s pace.

  • q-iconIs this something I could do via Skype? I am looking for a study to do with my friends , but we are in different cities.

    Absolutely! The weekly videos will be available online so you could get on Skype (or Google Hangouts, iChat, or whatever), watch them at the same time, then talk and process through the questions and each week’s reading together. We love this idea! What an awesome way to bond with friends across the miles.

  • q-iconWhat communication can I expect to receive? I don't want to be inundated with emails.

    After sign up you’ll receive an email a week as you’re going through the study. We’ll keep you updated on the assigned reading for the week and where to watch your companion videos. 

  • q-iconMy Internet connection is slow. Can I buy the DVDs and watch the videos that way?

    Yes! The videos that are on the DVDs are the same videos as what will appear online. This is a nice option if you’re in a traditional church setting and don’t have an Internet connection, or if you want to do the study later and go at your own pace! Individuals can purchase the DVD from FaithGateway and save 40% off.

  • q-iconI don't live in the USA and want to do this Bible study. How can I obtain the materials please?

    Anyone with Internet access can watch the videos for FREE week by week, and follow along with our weekly emails. If you are outside the U.S., we recommend checking with your local Christian bookstore or online retailer. In Canada and the United Kingdom, for example, the materials are often available from Amazon.

  • q-iconIs this online Bible study just for women?

    Everyone and anyone is welcome to join the In the Middle of the Mess online Bible study. Sheila’s studies appeal to women but the Scriptural truths and study of God’s Word are for everyone.

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